I got a comment on my last blog post about the HFO personalized file.

I do not mean for this to be disrespectful or greedy, but will these custom files be made public like most custom files? For example, say my name was Mark (it isn’t). If another Mark purchased a custom file, would his be made public so I and any other Marks could listen to it as personalized?

The way this is phrased is a bit odd, actually.

It’s asking if I’ll release this file like must custom files. (Answer: yes.)

But then it goes on to say as an example, if someone named Mark gets it, will his version be made public so other Marks can listen, as if that’s an example of how I release most customs. But I’ve never once released a file, including those that were from non-exclusive custom orders, with any names!

Anyway, with that phrasing cleared up, I think what he was trying to get at was just a practical question… If I’ve got a file with versions that have a BUNCH of different names, why not release them all so anyone lucky enough to have that name can listen to a version with his name?

There are actually many reasons why not, and I’ll share some with you guys. I’ve always been the type who likes to let you all peek behind the curtain. Why stop now? 🙂 Ranging from least to most important…

1. Holy crap, I don’t want to host that many 45-minute files for download. Ahhh!

2. This would kinda suck for people with uncommon names. They’d never luck out and get a free file with their name. They’d probably end up have flashbacks to being a kid in a gift shop looking for a key chain with their name on it, only to be disappointed yet again. 😉

3. I’m a big fan of privacy. I know there are some extremely common names out there, and I know there are people who wouldn’t mind the larger hypnosis world knowing they got a personalized file for me no matter what their name is. But there are also people with first names that are recognizable in this small community. I’m not about to start broadcasting, in any way, who chose to purchase what from me. And that means I’d never release a file with a name.

But even if all those other reasons didn’t exist, this one would:

I give away most of my work for free. People who financially support me by purchasing custom and customized sessions are the ONLY reason I can do this.

The awesome guys who purchase personalized versions are patrons of my erotic art. They are the reason I can do what I love to do.

Yes, “personalization” means a guy’s name is in a file. But it’s more than that, at least for me. I think about the person who will get the end result as I record his name during the session. I’m hoping he’ll like it, I’m feeling pleased and grateful that he chose to financially support me and my hypnosis, I’m looking forward to giving him the session.

I’m thinking about him, not just stating his name.

So I don’t actually want anyone else to hear that file. It belongs to him and only him.

I haven’t ever had people double up on names (though I’ve come close with two people having two slightly different nicknames for a longer name), but I can honestly see myself recording the same name twice, once for each person, if that ever happened. Because it’s not just a file for a name, it’s a file for the specific kickass guy who wants to share this hypnotic experience with me and plays a part in making sure I’ll be able to stick around to create many more.

Let’s celebrate the New Year – with an orgy-themed HFO trance!

This file will be released for free on February 1st. But if you pre-order, you can make this HFO experience much, MUCH more intense.

That’s right, I’m offering this 45-minute file for personalized PRE-ORDER. For $75, you can hear me address you by name in this incredibly hot HFO experience at least ten times. (Still scripting, so I can’t be exact.) It’s all the intimacy of a custom session at a fraction of the price!

I can only take pre-orders through 12pm ET January 27th* because the file cannot be personalized after I record it. All recording for this file, including lines personalized with your name, will happen in a single recording session to maintain flawlessly matched audio quality.

Go ahead, read the description and imagine how searingly hot it would be to hear your name on my lips, to hear me speak directly and unmistakably to you, while I guide you to hands-free orgasm…

*I reserve the right to end this offer sooner than the 27th if I receive too many pre-orders. Don’t wait until the last minute!

To order your personalized copy now, just enter your name and email address below. I will contact you with payment instructions shortly.

Custom orders are now closed.

AUDIO BLOG VERSION (11:43):

I don’t eat sugar. I mean that in a period, the end, no excuses, no exceptions kind of way.

Most often, when people learn that about me, the reaction is, “Oh my God, I could never do that!” They say they don’t have the willpower to give up sugar completely.

When they tell me that I think, yeah, I bet you don’t. In fact, I’m SURE you don’t have the willpower! Weak-willed little bitch. But here’s the thing. NEITHER DO I!

I TOTALLY don’t have the willpower to just give up sugar, forever and ever, amen. That would take such a massive amount of energy to maintain the sheer force of will necessary to prevent myself from eating sugar completely day in and day out for months and months on end. I don’t have that kind of will power. And yet, that’s my reality, without any “slips” or “cheats” or anything.

So how do I do it? Well, I rely on something other than will power – I rely on motivation.

So when people tell me they don’t have the willpower, I think yeah, I bet you don’t… Neither do I… But I do think you could stop eating sugar. I think you’re wrong when you say, “I could NEVER do that.” I think you could, even though you’re right when you say you don’t have the willpower.

The reason I think they’re wrong is that proper motivation makes things completely effortless.

Maybe you’re sitting there thinking you couldn’t give sugar up either… But I promise you this – if you woke up tomorrow and had a completely lethal and untreatable allergy to sugar, sugar would never intentionally pass your lips again. It just wouldn’t.

Moreover, it wouldn’t even be a struggle. There wouldn’t even be the risk of failure. At least, not intentional failure. (When I say “intentional” failure, I don’t mean it was desired. I just mean as opposed to accidental failure – like someone switching out your salt shaker and filling it with sugar. Intentional meaning your own willful actions.)

So there is zero risk of intentional failure if you have a motivation such as “You know what? I don’t want to die today.” You’d never walk into the break room at work, and see your dream cake all sliced up for someone’s birthday and have there be any risk that in five minutes you’re going to be standing in the corner, licking frosting frantically off your fingers like, “I just couldn’t help myself!”

That’s just not a risk when it’s a life-or-death choice. When your motivation is sufficient, willpower becomes irrelevant.

IN THE PRESENCE OF THE RIGHT MOTIVATION, THERE IS ZERO RISK FOR INTENTIONAL FAILURE.

(Side Note: I don’t have an allergy, lethal or otherwise, to sugar. My motivation stems from elsewhere. But that’s important to note because it demonstrates that it doesn’t have to be life-or-death-level motivation in order to be powerful enough to virtually eliminate the risk of intentional failure. My avoidance of sugar is effortless.)

Now, as you may have surmised, this conversation isn’t actually about sugar. It was a bit metaphoric.

What I’m really talking about is submission. Because what I see all the time is submissive men either telling me or other Dommes, or just sort of announcing in the general direction of another submissive who is completing a submissive act, “Oh my God, I could never do X, Y, or Z submissive thing!”

I couldn’t remain chaste for 30 days. 100 days. 200 days. Wherever their “couldn’t!” factor kicks in for a particular task.
I couldn’t kneel on rice for 5 minutes. 15 minutes. An hour.
I couldn’t sacrifice $200 in tribute. $500. $1,000.
I couldn’t try anal stretching or sounding or eating cum or pain.
I couldn’t truly, completely surrender to submission, to the will of another.

Every time I see something like that, my instant thought is, “Oh, bullshit. BULLSHIT. Of course you could.”

Because you don’t suffer from a lack of ability, you are simply trying to draw strength from the wrong place. You are searching within yourself for willpower, but you don’t need willpower. You need motivation. Also, if you’ve been tranced/trained to be drained of your willpower in specific submissive situations, you’re trying to tap a well that’s already dry, honey! It’s not going to help you anyway.

If you think about it, if you were going to DIE if you didn’t accomplish those submissive things, you would make. them. happen. Of course you would. They might be difficult to accomplish, absolutely. You might lose sleep, might have to break some rules – maybe even some laws – to get them done, but fuck yeah, you’d GET THEM DONE. You wouldn’t have to use any willpower to fight a craving not to complete them. Because every fiber of your being would be dedicated to getting them done! Because your life depends on it. That’s the power of proper motivation.

So turning to willpower within yourself during your weakest, sluttiest, most mindless and submissive moments is absolute insanity. Don’t do it.

Turn to the outside. To your Mistress. To her desires, her pleasure, her pride. That’s your motivation and that’s a million times stronger than any willpower you’ll find inside yourself. Tweak your focus on different aspects of her and her dominance, in order to find the right combination to perfect your motivation. Like I said, her desires, her pleasure, her pride in you, her intellect, her power, her voice, her beauty, her experience, her commands for you – anything and everything that inspires you and inspires your submission that comes from HER instead of willpower that comes from YOURSELF. Those are the things to focus on.

When you find the right combination, your motivation is perfected. Then the submissive acts you are endeavoring to complete for her, they might be difficult, yes… But embracing an all-encompassing desire to succeed in them will not be. There will be zero chance for intentional failure. And pursing these commands, her desires, her pleasure, these submissive acts will be completely effortless because you will have the right motivation. Not saying completing the acts will be effortless! But being 100% dedicated to doing so will be – no excuses, no exceptions.

In the end, in short, screw willpower! 🙂